AND FINALLY!!!

We arrived back home an hour early thanks to a strong tailwind and we both had a really good night's sleep. It's now time to reflect on all the amazing things that have happenned during past week.

SO MUCH - without a doubt we have seen more amazing miracles and experienced more of the 'soaking' presence of God than at any other time in our lives.

Bumping into Heidi Baker and Joshua Mills in the hotel lobby was one of those 'God moments' and something definitely happenned as they prayed for us.

Just yesterday afternoon I was with the students on the River Church BIG Year and I had the opprtunity to pray for them - it was wild - I think we are carrying something!

I have got a much better understanding on why there is a delay on Mo being healed - just read this extract from an email I received yesterday -

I just finished reading your blog and was so blessed. I really love the humility and transparency. While I was there I would call my husband nightly and tell of the days events. I told about how I met you and Mo. I told them that when I looked at the two of you I truly saw the reflection the the Bride and Christ. The intense Love and dedication you have for your wife is the intense love and dedication that God has for us. To tell you the honest to God truth your beauty as a couple is what turned my heart away from myself and my needs to the needs of others. Those last few days my heart broke and I wept for others and for their freedom and no longer for myself. I have waited my entire life for this. Truly I can not wait to hear the day that Mo is set free. I found myself waking and praying for her.

During the week so many people came up to us and said stuff like this and what a blessing it had been to them to watch us during the meetings - I feel so touched and humbled by that.

I'm not sure about the theology of this but I get a feeling that the devil may be getting a bit hacked off at all the blessing that is coming from Mo's sickness that he is close to giving up and leaving us alone - WHAT DO YOU THINK?

What I do know is that I have a new strength to carry on as a result of being in Toronto.

Love - Terry & Mo

PAPA GOD IS FULL OF SURPRISES!

I really thought that yesterday's blog would be my last from Toronto - I was wrong!

I am awake very early and have been spending some time with God - it gives me a chance to get back into GMT as well I guess.

I promised God that I would not allow myself to be disappointed if Mo was not healed at the conference, but I guess I knew that would be a hard thing to take. But I am amazed at how much God has taught me about Mo and about myself over the past week without any obvious improvement in her condition.

I have been re-reading 'The Shack' and I am realising that part of my 'now' journey has been to visit my own 'Great Sadness' (you have to read the book) and to see that Papa God has always been right there with me so there is nothing to fear. As a result God has been doing some very big things in me, and it all started coming clear while Joshua Mills was preaching yesterday morning.

As a result I have:

1) Fully forgiven those whose actions over the years have taken Mo into depression, fear, and into the panic attacks that I believe may have contributed to how she is now;

2) Fully forgiven myself for the intense anger I have felt towards those people;

3) Fully forgiven myself for the anger I have felt towards God for not protecting Mo from this sickness;

4) Fully forgiven myself for the anger and frustration I have sometimes expressed towards Mo when I have felt that I just couldn't cope any more;

5) Received a new way of understanding why Mo has not been healed yet;

The key was in James 1:2-4

Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.

Through what Joshua shared yesterday I realised that the time between now, and when Mo is fully healed, is to be a time of special blessing when we can still have an effective ministry together by proving that what satan intended for evil God can use for good. (See Genesis 50:20).

Thank you for your prayers - THEY WORKED!

With our love - Terry & Mo

GOD IS GOOD - ALL THE TIME!

Today's pictures are of the two young ladies from the UK who have been a support to us in prayer and in caring for Mo - also of Joshua Mills and his wife and son.

I didn't write a blog yesterday - to be honest I was feeling very down as it had been a big struggle all day. I couldn't get Mo to eat more than a few scraps and when it came to prayer at the end of the evening meeting (Fire Tunnels for those who understand the jargon!) Mo was very resistant - saying 'no no no'. I believe it was right to take her through and trust that God was doing something - AND HE WAS!

Today started down at the TACF building with three people prophesying over us with some really helpful stuff - all on tape for us to bring home. Then we went into the morning meeting. Joshua Mills was preaching again and it was utterly amazing (I have ordered the DVD). Basically he shared his testimony about how God moved him from a place of cynicism and doubt about the 'Toronto stuff' back in the mid 90s to a place where God touched him very deeply and how God is now using him in the most extraordinary signs and wonders and mircales you have ever heard of.

We were in the 2nd row and about half an hour into his message I saw one gold fleck appear on his face. After another 5-10mins his face and jacket were covered in gold flecks - it happenned before our eyes. The sense of God's presence was something we will never forget - everyone was getting touched very powerfully. He prayed for Mo at the end and God showed him excatly what was wrong with her.

It's kind of difficult to explain, but through Joshua's message I now have a much better understanding why Mo's healing has been delayed. One of the clues is the large number of people who came up to us at the conference and shared what a blessing it had been to them to see how we 'were' together and the love we had for each other - WOW!

The reason why we have a photo of us with Joshua and his family is another one of God's hotel lobby appointments - we walked in as they were walking out - so we were able to chat and take a photo - THANK YOU LORD JESUS!

Just one more healing meeting tonight before we fly out in the morning - Mo is asleep in the hotel room while I do some packing.

THANK YOU FOR PRAYING

IT'S SO GOOD TO BE HERE!

It's Saturday morning already and we have a new best friend - Joy Buckland from Juno, Alaska. Here she is in the meeting last night with Mo. She is really lovely and we have taken to each other - she has been a real blessing with Mo and has been telling her husband back home about us.

In some ways Thursday was just another typical day - if typical could EVER be the right description of what is happening at this conference. We have been to a few in our time (including Lakeland) but we have never been anywhere where there has been such a sustained sense of God's loving presence - from the moment you walk in the doors. The only other place that gave us that immediate sense of 'WOW God is here' was when we walked into the River Church Centre in Tonbridge, Kent, UK.

Here is a typical day for us:

6:30 get up and get ready

7:30 take the 10min walk to the church for breakfast and a catchup on emails and blogging on the free wi-fi! Then after finding a seat in the auditorium we spend an hour in the chapel 'soaking' - basically lying on the carpet while others pray with gentle backround worship music - IT'S WONDERFUL!

10:00 The start of the first session with worship - a lot of the worship has been what I would call 'free form' where the musicians and singers blend in a spontaineous time of amazing praise. The sense of God's presence is often so overwhelming that you just have to sit down or lie down - you also have to deal with the thoughts of 'when are they going to sing a proper song that we all know'. - They do sometimes - and that's good too.

The meal breaks are great for meeting new friends from all over the world!

The three speakers yesterday were Duncan Smith (ex Spurgeons) and full of fire - Carol Arnott who did a workshop on how to get into God's presence and see visions, so there was more time on the carpet focusing on God - then Joshua Mills spoke in the evening and I can hardly describe what happenned but it ended up with Joshua praying for each one of us and anointing us with oil. There were at least a thousand people and there were bodies all over the floor getting blessed by God.

Mo was definitely being touched and she has been very loving this morning but still no evidence yet of the breakthrough we are looking for.

SO MORE LORD!

Love - Terry & Mo

24 HOURS WITH HEIDI

I'm a bit late with the blog today - there is such a lot happening!

A couple more pics for you - although one conference is pretty much like another when it comes to photo's.

I need to report on the whole of Wednesday and most of Thursday - we are catching a short break in our room before the evening session with Joshua Mills - he is an amazing young preacher with songwriting gifts, but he is best known for moving in some staggering creative miracles and suddenly finding himself transported in the Spirit just like Philp in Acts 8:40. You could Google him if you are interested - but be warned - just like most of the other guys I have come to respect in ministry, there are some critical people out there who think he's a false prophet!

The three sessions from Heidi were outstanding (I'm bringing back DVDs and audio files)

She is a lady who has lived through incredible dangers and persecution but has seen God move whole villages to receive Christ - WHAT AN INSPIRATION. She prayed for us a couple of times and we will be able to keep in touch with her as we prepare the River Church BIG Year Team for the visit to Freetown next May.

This afternoon we sat next to a young lady from Juna, Alaska. I knew that My good friend Eric Cowley had taken meetings in Juna so I aske if she knew him. She nearly fell off her seat - she had not only heard of Eric but he had minstered many times in her church and had been a tremendous blessing. She was shocked that we were sitting together - so we ended up praying for each other.

Although I am not seeing anything dramatic in Mo yet, today has been much more settled - thank you for praying and for sending emails. What I can say is that the whole experience is like sitting in a warm bath - the sense of God's presence and His peace is just wonderful - we both feel very safe and very loved by the Father - IT'S BEYOND WORDS!

LOVE - TERRY & MO

MEETING HEIDI BAKER

Iknow it's sad - but yesterday I weighed in at Weightwatchers - Toronto

I lost half a pound - which isn't bad after a diet of muffins and cookies!



Well - we finally got to meet Heidi late last night. We were heading for the lift in our hotel late last night when Heidi and one of her team arrived in the lobby. God's planning that we are in the same hotel I'm sure!

Last week Andrew Sesay (her leader in Freetown) was with Heidi so we were able to share about the BIG Year team visit next May. I asked her how her husband (Rolland) was doing (he was healed of dementia a few weeks ago). She is going to tell the full story this morning.

Most of yesterday was hearing amazing stories of what God is doing in remote places around the world. We were introduced to the expression 'Extreme Mission' - this is not just about lots of walking and sleeping under the stars and eating wierd food - it's about arriving in a hostile village - having rocks thrown at you - shouting out 'bring us your deaf and blind' - seeing them healed in the name of Jesus - seeing whole villages become Christians as a result - planting a church - moving on to the next village. THIS IS SUCH CHALLENGING STUFF.

We have met people who have seen heavy rainfall arrive out of season as a direct result of their prayers - others who routinely see severely disable / deaf / blind people totally healed in an instant. We are getting all the prayer and input on offer by making sure we are in the front row - YOU KNOW ME!

Today is the end of the Mission School and the start of the main conference so we will hear Heidi speak twice - please pray that we get ba chance to speak with her again and for her to pray for us.

GOD BLESS - TERRY & MO

MISSION SCHOOL - DAY 1

Today has been a down day - I'm determined to stay positive because whenever we go away there are usually a couple of days when Mo's responses make it quite difficult to cope. Yesterday Mo refused most of the food and seemed quite depressed all day except for the times when people were praying with her - and there has been plenty of that! We took some time out between the afternoon and evening sessions so we could rest and find some suitable food for Mo.

There are about 250 on the School of Mission from all over the world and we have met some lovely people from the USA / Netherlands / Austria / Germany / Ukraine / Australia / and we haven't met them ALL yet! There will be many more at the main conference which starts tomorrow afternoon.

Yesterday we had sessions covering 'fund raising' - 'planning for an overseas team' - and one from John Arnott about reaching the nations. They were all excellent with plenty of practical stuff as well as time to pray for each other.

Heidi arrives today and will be speaking at the evening session and in the morning tomorrow

Please pray that Mo will have a more settled day

Love - Terry & Mo