PAPA GOD IS FULL OF SURPRISES!

I really thought that yesterday's blog would be my last from Toronto - I was wrong!

I am awake very early and have been spending some time with God - it gives me a chance to get back into GMT as well I guess.

I promised God that I would not allow myself to be disappointed if Mo was not healed at the conference, but I guess I knew that would be a hard thing to take. But I am amazed at how much God has taught me about Mo and about myself over the past week without any obvious improvement in her condition.

I have been re-reading 'The Shack' and I am realising that part of my 'now' journey has been to visit my own 'Great Sadness' (you have to read the book) and to see that Papa God has always been right there with me so there is nothing to fear. As a result God has been doing some very big things in me, and it all started coming clear while Joshua Mills was preaching yesterday morning.

As a result I have:

1) Fully forgiven those whose actions over the years have taken Mo into depression, fear, and into the panic attacks that I believe may have contributed to how she is now;

2) Fully forgiven myself for the intense anger I have felt towards those people;

3) Fully forgiven myself for the anger I have felt towards God for not protecting Mo from this sickness;

4) Fully forgiven myself for the anger and frustration I have sometimes expressed towards Mo when I have felt that I just couldn't cope any more;

5) Received a new way of understanding why Mo has not been healed yet;

The key was in James 1:2-4

Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.

Through what Joshua shared yesterday I realised that the time between now, and when Mo is fully healed, is to be a time of special blessing when we can still have an effective ministry together by proving that what satan intended for evil God can use for good. (See Genesis 50:20).

Thank you for your prayers - THEY WORKED!

With our love - Terry & Mo